I have been waiting for this high to dissipate. Feels as if I'm constantly jacked up on a mixture of speed and mdma. Full of energy. Drenched in gratitude. Love pouring through in everything I do. Almost thought I was going crazy. Was I really that depressed and unhappy to feel this way suddenly? But it's been three weeks now and my love for life and this new... life... is still growing. It may sound bananas, but I wake up at 6 or 7 am with a smile on my face almost each morning. Looking out at sea, or the majestic mountain behind the house and my blood and heart is being filled with such powerful earth energy that I think I might die and it is ok, as I have experienced IT. Total bliss. Extreme appreciation. Indescribable love. A long lasting natural high in its truest form. If there's any parameter for happiness, I feel my termometer is boiling and about to explode.
Been thinking much about self love lately on all my meditative drives and walks I've made in this breathtaking nature through mountains and valleys (seriously, it hurts the eye and makes you want to cry, that beautiful it is. pics coming..) Ultimately, being alone, particularly in such an otherworldly calm and rejuvenating environment, allows you to tap into that genuine love and care for the self so beautifully. By realizing if this nature is so magical in all its ways from the sunrise to dawn, then so are all we who came from it. We all are a part of this brilliance, we must never forget that!
We are all beautiful and mesmerizing and gorgeous in our own ways. We need to appreciate it. Express it in all the ways our bodies and souls yearns for. We mustn't forget to show love, appreciation and thankfulness to where we came from. Nature and the divine source energy that we all consist of, like stars in the universe or luminescent plankton in the ocean. We are all part of the whole, connected in spirit. We are no products of a square society, we are no machines that has to be materially successful. We are not someone who have to fit in or look a certain way to be of value. Please don't ever buy into that. We are just who we are. With our blood and skin and flesh and bones and flaws and perfect imperfections. We are soulful beings full of energy, living in a magical beautiful world that can teach us more about ourselves than we knew there was to us.
Your dreams and that which your heart desire is what is you. Don't close it up. Let it out. Let it fly. Fulfill the essence of you and the mother source will reward you for being authentic. It took me some time to find my way back to the purity of nature and my existence within it. But I will spend the rest of my days expressing my gratitude to her in all the ways I am able. Because she is me, as she is you. We are nothing without her...